ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH 

okay 

this is all so very SO VERY fucked up 

not this again, i can’t do this again! 

i legitimately must hate myself or something, why else would i be willing to go through this bullshit all that pain all those tears.

must you do this to me, must i do this to myself

cannot deal with this anymore, but we all know i will because well…